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[07 04 03 · 03:57am] mood · complacent music · "Dear Friend" - Stacie Orrico Wow, I really haven't updated in a long time. What better time to do it than now in the middle of the night? Well, I'm finally 16! My bday was on July 2nd, of course. Fun fun. I didn't really do anything. I want to go to a waterpark soon with a few friends and family. I broke up with Manny. Yeah, I really needed to update. I was single for a while. I broke up with him because Mike came back into my life. My feelings for him wouldn't grow because of that. Well, I guess that's just another thing thrown away. Mike won't ever be with me. I started hanging around with Ricky again on my sister's birthday. Joy. Either way, it doesn't bother me. I was betrayed by Jason before, then he apologized, crap happened, we're friends again. Everyone hated me. That's fixed now. Ant is "disgusted" by me, I almost lost Cait as a friend because of cybering Ant. Some bullshit about I did it on purpose because Cait liked him when I didn't know. I cried so hard that night and for a couple of days. I lost Mike's trust. Ant reminded me of him. I feel terrible about it, but I can't change the past nor will I dwell on it. I went through a lot of crap, but in the end, I suppose it all turns out well. I even started talking to James again. How weird is that? I finally made my blurty of Legally Blonde. Backround, thanks to Ally<3. ilu. Movin on... Happy birthday to me, today to Dani, tomorrow to Mike! Soon, it'll be the rest. I'll say happy birthday to you too! See? You just need a little faith. Things work out to make you happy. Well, I'm going now. Don't know when I need to get up. xox Muahz. ·.2.·  ·· kiss

[06 09 03 · 08:46pm] mood · full music · "You"- Jennifer Love Hewitt Well, life's been goin good. With Manny everything's great. Yesterday was 2 months that me and him are together now. School's lettin out on Wednesday. I know, I'm still in school. It sucks because we're not really doing anything just the final exams and they're so boring. I can't wait, really. Time to relax. I don't know what I'm gonna do for my birthday. I need ideas. No, Rell. I will not jump off a cliff or climb up a tree to have Ashanti groom me, rofl. I still haven't done my layout yet! >< I want help. I need to change this journal and make something new. This is boring me already. Muahz. ·.1.·  ·· kiss

[05 30 03 · 09:48pm] mood · chipper music · "Before Your Love" - Kelly Clarkson I... have... a... cold-sneeze;dies- Mk, so anyway, I just finished eating. Woop. Today I felt ugly and shitty and bleagh, but people actually thought I looked hott today. Looking at me and saying "damn" I dunno. I felt like crap. Cold, have my period. It just pretty much sucks k. I want to change this journal. I'm not that sure of what I want to do, but I have an idea. I want to do that Legally blonde thing. A second part is coming out! I wannnnnt to see it so bad. People are starting to call me Elle again because of it. They say I act ditzy. Do I really? A freshman even dissed me, bro. They were talking about going to the lou-ou. I'm like "I was here last year, they check if you're an underclassmen. You're not senior" He was like "Well, you weren't a freshman like us... You wear pink, Elle." O.O No! Just sometimes. And I don't even like pink that much. Baby blue is better <333 even though that's the equivalent, but still. So yeah, what do you think? Legally blonde, pink/baby blue backround? XD Answer if you'd like. Whatever, I just need help with a decision. kk thnx kiss

[05 26 03 · 08:14pm] mood · full TODAY- Omg, if I don't hurl now. I'll hurl later. Wow, I have used the word hurl in a long time. I just ate so much today. No wonder I'm so fat. ;x hehe. Earlier, though, wow. The movie X2, you have got to see it. It was so awesome. I have the first one, and I'm definitely getting the second one. I think there may be an X3. Mystique is just awesome. Too bad she's a villain, but she is so...wow. She's adorable, though. The faces she puts and then the way she acts. Great fighter, awesome. Storm was so pretty and awesome as well. She did a lot more of the storm things in the movie. I loved the effects. Rogue wasn't as good in this movie. She was just...there. Nightcrawler..Bad ass. Funny accent. I'm thinking he's jewish. I loved the faith talk he gave Storm. Woop. Well, let me not give any more away. I feel like a commercial. BITCHING- The past two days have been pretty whacked out. I broke up with Manny. Long story and you probably already know it. His little immature friends had begun to bitch. I had already apologized, but some people are just too stubborn to understand. I really don't give a crap about it because of the fact that they don't know anything and they're not in the relationship, and they are noone to judge me. And it was really funny too, considering that they had no point to make. Sweeties, you can't bitch at a bitch. And here's some tips: 1) Make sure you're point makes sense. 2) Make sure you have a point. 3) Don't be such hypocrites. You're bitching at me, my bitch friends, which are worse than you, yet are mature about it, will stick up for me. 4) Please save your time and mine. Only use the bitching when necessary. BACK TOGETHER AGAIN- Last night, I got back with Manny. We had started talking and getting along as friends. I made him promise to stay that way. It reminded me of why I love him. Of course he can come to me with anything bothering him, but not act the way he had been with every little dumb problem. No offense, babe. Anyway, I love you Manny. ·.5.·  ·· kiss

[05 24 03 · 02:19am] mood · numb music · "Angel" - Kelly Clarkson Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh, beautiful release memories seep from my veins and may be empty. Oh, how weightless, then maybe ill find some peace tonight In the arms of the angel far away from here from this dark cool hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel May you find, some comfort here So tired of the straight life and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back and the storm keeps on twisting keep on building the lies that you make up for all that you lack it don't make no difference escape them one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness Oh, this glorious sadness, that brings me to my knees In the arms of the angel far away from here from this dark cool hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here kiss

[05 23 03 · 07:34pm] Mjsilfies: if i was a chick i'd be bi ;x As if noone ever suspected this. Caitlin, I have one word for you: Experiments. XD kiss

sup [05 18 03 · 11:28am] mood · blah music · "More To Life" - Stacie Orrico Yo, yo! k...promise never to do that again. I'm just chillin' here. Yesterday was a long day, but I had so much fun. Up side; I was having fun with friends and stuff. Down side; A spent a whole day Manny-less. Up side to that; I fell asleep with my away message on in this room, and I woke up and Manny IMed me 11 times talking to himself ;x lmao..but it was so cute. Ilu <3 and I talked to him. I went to the vet in the morning to take Lady. Sheesh. She thinks she's still a puppy or something. Jumping on me and shit. She's not that big, she's a beagle but I'm 96 lbs and so.. YEAH lol. Later, after getting screamed at by my mother, I got all bummy and went to Evelyn's house to finish off the math project, then chilled afterward until my mom got back from wherever. Then she was all nice again and I got ready and went to banquet where I was supposed to go with Caney, but nooo. She was just there with some other girls, so I was with Sasha, Jenny, and Natalie. I also chilled with Sasha's brother, Chris. He reminds me of Manny lol. He's 13, though. After the dinner, we all danced like hell. It was fun. I came back home and Manny wouldn't come on so like around 1:30, I fell asleep here then I talked to him, he left, I fell asleep again, and now I'm here. I have to do my english project and do the finishing touches to my Italian project. ::dies:: Muahz I love you, Manny. Love yaz too. - Gisselle, duh. ·.1.·  ·· kiss

k so anyway... [05 13 03 · 12:41am] mood · jubilant music · Miracle- Song stuck in my head Here I am, 12:30am writing in my blurty journal. Wow, what fun. I must say, going to sleep late and going to school the next day half asleep is such fun. I have a math test tomorrow. Yaayy... I'm gonna pass, but, really, who gives a fuck if I do or don't? I gotta get a good grade on my project and the end. School can seriously kiss my ass. I did work for 4 people and because I forgot my shape dimensions and answers, I got an F while they got B's. Those bastards better talk. I don't deserve that F. Anyway, along the lines of my love life, some people like interfering in it. I'm not going to point the finger, say any names. Those of you who know who they are know, especially that person, and those of you who don't just don't. Don't worry about it. Too many people like to come around and fuck shit up, but you know what? Screw that bullshit. I trust Manny, and I know it might surprise some of you just because I haven't trusted a guy in a long time. I love him so much. I got scared, but then realized there is no need to be scared. No one can stand between us and he assured me of that. I'm not gonna even mind people anymore. I promised myself not to. In other words, I truly see it all as a joke. I started off being happy as ever with him, it's gonna keep being that way. The baby lizard I saw that night in Manny's blurty is dead now. I stepped on it. Ugly piece of trash. ;x This weekend is banquit for music. I'm going with Caney. Don't know what we'll do but I guess I'll find out. Which reminds me, I have to get my dress. Bleagh. Rampage <3 nice dresses. I want something original. On top of that, I have projects to do. Would anyone like to help me? Anyone? k. So I'll see you some other time. Muahz. I love you, Manny. <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 endlessly kiss

Maybe I Won't Look Back [05 07 03 · 06:35pm] music · Maybe I Won't Look Back - Stacie Orrico I woke up from dreaming I dreamed I got a call from a friend of mine She sounded really lonely But I had somewhere else to be I said I'll call you later 'Cause I really had to go I can't be late, she'll be okay This is important Then I forgot completely You can be who you choose to be But whether you do or whether you don't Depends on your priorities And I know that it's not easy I'm looking for the peace to find some sleep tonight 'Cause I'm not very proud of the way I have lived today But if I choose to follow Him along the way Then maybe I won't look back, and feel like Time has gone and passed me by Maybe I won't look back- On those days I could have said something In those times when help was needed, I was busy Was it worth it, no I don't think so, 'Cause now I see the moment is gone Maybe I won't look back- In some way I could have done something A thoughtful word, a simple smile, but I was selfish But if I change my heart today Tomorrow it might be okay And maybe I won't look back. I woke up from a nightmare Where I walking down the street Invisible and no one else could see me All my chances were gone I can't get your attention I've had so many things to say But never tried, afraid you wouldn't listen I should have done it all differently Can't hold back - can't be shy This is my big chance to be living the life I gotta stand up strong take the ride Throw all those useless excuses aside There's so much to do I got a lot to say I don't always understand But I follow anyway 'cause There is a bigger plan, a destiny I can't waste this precious time kiss

Woop [05 05 03 · 05:18pm] mood · happy music · I'm Alive Heh. Well, thanks for the comment in the last entry. Yes, as usual, I haven't updated in a while, so here I am. Yesterday was 3 weeks that I'm with Manny, and yes, thankfully everything got better. I guess he was just shy or something. We sort of talked it out and I can honestly just say that Manny is the best boyfriend ever. He's so understanding which is something I wanted. Of course I wouldn't sit back and just hope for everything to magically get better. The best part about this relationship is that we take things so slowly. Little by little at a time which is so good. There's a better thrill for it, more excitement to it. I love him. I used to think that a "perfect" relationship was boring. Now I'm with Manny and it is perfect and it's not boring. I know with other guys I would say I hadn't felt a certain way, well, all those feelings that I felt, it's just turned into something new with Manny. It's gone far beyond anything and it's so weird that it's happened in such a short time. Could you imagine later on? Let me not get over excited here plz. Anyway, in school, they're bombarding me with projects. My science presentation and project was due and I got 5 A's with Karina. Now, I have math proposal for the project due Wednesday, the actual project due the week after. On Wednesday is also due a commercial for English that we have to make up. Lordy. Anyway... I'm gonna stop writing now. I feel like Rell typing too much ;x;x;x Muah <333333 ilu. kiss

Paiin [04 30 03 · 07:31pm] mood · irritated music · Thankful - Kelly Clarkson So here I am again, updating. I'm in so much pain. I swear, I quit on being a girl. k, anyway... lately things have been good, ok. With Manny, I don't know. I love him so much, but why does he seem so depressed? He seems like a girl. Overly dramatic? k, babe, I love you.. but shut up. When PMS hits, you're the biggest bitch, right? Manny needs it to complete his dramatic phase. I mean, I'm always there for him, always. I wanna make him happy, and then when something is over, there's a new problem, but it's getting stupid. Yeah, everyone has problems ok? Get over it. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough with making him feel better. I'm getting a little annoyed about how he shows no affection what-so-ever. It was cute at first, k he's shy. Sure, we were both a little shy. But now, it's just getting to the point where I feel like he's pushing me away. We don't have to do anything, but at least say sweeter things and try to make conversation with me instead of making ao-faces. He's not as understanding as I thought. He won't even help to fix the problem. I try to show a little affection. Just a little. He won't do anything. I feel so not wanted. He might as well just leave me already. If he doesn't want me, I mean... Right? I don't know what to do anymore. Anybody have advice? Girls? ·.3.·  ·· kiss

[04 24 03 · 12:21am] mood · ditzy music · "First Love" - Billie Piper Well, I haven't updated in a while. I don't know where to start. This really hasn't been my week, I guess. Not with friends and such... Not even with family. My little cousin was supposed to be my best friend. We grew up like sisters. She talks crap about me. That's pretty hurtful. I'm not dancing her fifteens. I'm not doing anything for her anymore. I don't like this family. I love my sister, though, with all my life. Which reminds me, I forgot to call her. There's an idiot at school, Leo. Ew, he swears he's all that. He liked me last year and ew, I didn't want him. He's a geek and he's mean. He sweats himself because he has a freshman girlfriend. ::Giggle.:: It's funny. I cannot stand my mother. She's a freaking bitch. She doesn't care about what I work my ass off on. I love the fact that I have friends like Relly, Cait, and Krysh online. And someone else: I always know that I'm gonna come home and see him. He always cheers me up. I love him so much. Manny <33333. He's the best. If it wasn't for him, I don't know what I'd do at this point. Anyway, this is where I quit typing. Bye bye ;] kiss

[04 14 03 · 08:23pm] mood · bouncy Motionless River: ...o.o; Motionless River: I wanna fly BIind Blood: o.o; Motionless River: Mannnyy - tugs on him. - I wanna flyyy BIind Blood: Uh, Go on an air plane? Motionless River: ...no Motionless River: I want to fly BIind Blood: o.o; BIind Blood: You are already an Angel cant you fly? ·.2.·  ·· kiss

[04 14 03 · 08:18pm] mood · hopeful music · Red light special k I can honestly say that it's been made up for me not being able to go on the trip. Everything happens for reasons. Who knows? Maybe that was God's way of preventing something bad happening to me. Yesterday was like..so awesome. Rell got with Corey. ;x;x and then... Manny asked me to be his girl. I was so happy..Krysh thought I was high rofl. Yeah, I do realize it's an online relationship, and I do know I said I wouldn't date online anymore. Urgh, I am infatuated. It's just..something about him. He is so sweet and awesome. I feel like we understand eachother. I care about him so much. I want to always be there for him. Someone he can always count on. We are magnanimous, and it's great. He is such an awesome guy. The day started off pretty bad. So my theory must be true. You have to go through the worst to get to the best. "Without suffering there'd be no compassion." And I guess that just gets me more attached to him. Love ya, baby.<333 Love the rest of you too. Muahz. ·.1.·  ·· kiss

[04 10 03 · 08:37am] mood · annoyed I can't believe my mom. She's such a fucking bitch. I was supposed to go to Orlando. I worked my ass off the whole year to make money with fund raisers to bring the cost of my trip down, my mom paid for herself and the rest of mine. So long had I been waiting to do this, and to be able to perform, this morning she decides that she doesnt feel well so we can't go. So I'm still here. Hello? My teacher called. She tried to get my mom to let me go, but my mom just kept saying no. I can't believe her. I can't stand her. Now they've probably loaded the buses and they're on their way. I'm stuck here at home without believing that she took away another performance I could have gone to, and another chance of fun. She'll always find an excuse to bring everything I have down. She ows me a trip to Orlando and a trip to DisneyWorld- Magic Kingdom..MGM. We can't get the money back. I can't even cry right now because I'm so pissed. Everything happens for a reason though, right? ·.2.·  ·· kiss

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